Hello world. well you can see that its been more than a month since i have written. The reason it has been so long is because absolutely nothing has happened..at all.like at all... nothing-- no casting, nothing. it been dead. Did I mention that I was supposed to go to Ghana but I did not go because I did not want to "miss" anything? i should have gone.Well i was supposed to go in Dec then postponed it, I should have gone.
People, welcome to the real world of modeling.You can not count on just modeling alone unless you are a SUPERMODEL.one whole month has gone by and not a damn thing... nothing.So if i did not have college degrees and a job, what would I do?people, modeling is not as lucrative as you may think, trust me.You have to have a "real" job.Do not quit your day job for modeling.DONT DO IT.
Sometimes I see other models succeeding and I wonder, "what is it?". Is my agent NOT persistent enough, do people not like her or vice versa--why isnt she booking these top jobs?Like i see some catalogues and they have new dark models in there. Im like What the hell, how did my agent miss this jon.Its one of those things where you are kind of like," do i need to try and get jobs myself or just relax?' At the end of the day, the agent gets a commission of your pay, so it behooves them to get you a job but at the end of the day, they do not lose-- you the model do.I'm the one who pays for my travel, my hair, my nails, website fee, printed photos,my photo shoots (VERY EXPENSIVE SHOOTS)-- not my agent, so how much is my agent TRULY losing, in terms of money? yes she sends out the portfolios and tries to make contacts and retouches the photos..But my photos dont need that much retouching-- only the hair line when im wearing a wig. I dont like retouched photos-- i know that's the industry standard, but Im pretty happy with how i look, personally.
I got hooked up with a modeling agency in Africa but I need to email them and figure out how and what they want me to do so i can start casting for jobs. Here's the thing-- I'm not going to look this good forever, its a fact.i will eventually get married and have kids, so I am REALLY trying to maximize this modeling thing NOW!!! ts seems like FORD,Wilhelmina, and MUSE NYC Plus Size models are all doing well, but where are my agency's models booking? Its just a little annoying and frustrating.I know nothing happens overnight but if you believe in GOD why cant you believe that you are due your success? Where is my success?!?!? Im waiting for it? Do i need to call Steve Meisel or what??The other day, F.S from Vogue Italy was on Twitter because she had been on Twitter while she was in Ghana. I twittered her and I was like EMAIL ME. Franca Sozzani never did, I wish she would have.That lady is big time. When i catch her on twitter again, I think i may have to push a little harder next time. i think being a model is like being in a famine-- you have to fight for that last piece of bread. i know who the important figures are, its just a matter of meeting them at the right time.
